sometimes it's funny how life works out.

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3rd person point of view.

sometimes i get this feeling, like im reading a book written in the 3rd person limited point of view. i see things happen to the people around me, and it's almost like im watching it all from the outside. this can be really odd, but i like it at times as well.

advice; it's hard to sit there and tell someone everything will get better and know that they know that. i don't care what's going on; relationship ending, divorce, loss of a friend, eventually it will all be better. &of course at the time you don't think that.
see, the problem is is that when we're in a hole like that, that's all we think about. we keep thinking about the situation itself. so, we focus on the bad things around us, which by the law of attraction brings more bad. if everyone would just take a negative situation like that & use it to grow and learn everyone would be happier.

i'm not saying we can't get upset, i'd be a hypocrite if i did, but in terms of helping you get yourself out of that hole you're in, that's the advice i offer.

stop looking at what's wrong, and look at what's right.
grow, learn, &mature.

that seems to be difficult for us.

rest in peace david micheal paige.
3/17/93-12/3/08.

it's been a year, and i still can't find the words to say when this comes up.

david, i miss you so much. too much for words to describe. i don't understand what happened to you. you were always the light of the group. you were the joker, the one who always made everyone else laugh and feel better. you were the sweetest guy ever, and you were always so selfless. after sam's death you kept brianna and i going. you refused to let us give up, but you let us breakdown. you were there to comfort us, as we were you. i never felt closer to you two that day i came down there and we all just cried together. i hate that, but it's true. david, i forgive you. your note made me cry, and i don't mean that in a bad way. i can't imagine you thinking i'd hold a grudge against you for what you did.
david, i love you & i miss you.
i know that given the chance i'd bring you back in a second, but i can't help to feel like you're happier now. you're at peace, and that's all i want. i hope wherever you are you're happy and that you know there are so many people down here who love you.
i hated watching you deteriorate. you started losing your light. you'd never leave your house, never call anymore, or never hold a conversation when i called. you and brianna fell apart, and in turn so did what was left of our group.
that day when i heard what had happened i felt so lost, so alone. bri was there of course, but she was falling apart herself. it was like my heart just dropped out of my chest, and shattered on the ground. but, enough on the bad.
i still remember the day i met all of you, on the playground. &how we all became best friends instantly. &as the years came and went we were still close even though we all did hit some rather large bumps. our blood runs through each others veins, always.
i love you and miss you, and one day i'll see you again.
rest in peace, best friends forever.

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